2月14日

monday
valentine day

Actually valentine is nothings special to me........Tonight just like usual sit on the computer and dont know what to do.
Tonight i suddenly write a email to june... coz i really long time dint see her online just want to know how about her life now and telling her about "dou dou".......
Already 2weeks,,, doudou never back home yet!!!!!
This everning i try to seaching her around this housing area.. But i failed, i cant get any news about her...... actually i just want to know whether she still alive or not..... i really miss her and worried about her...
Now i still cant get used with it.......... after dou dou not around.. i really found that my house become very silent.. never heard dog barking again..................................
When i feel down, dou dou wont sit beside me again.................. when i bored no dog playing with me again,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
why always like that,,,, whenn i found somethings that can accompany me when i feel comfortable with it.......... one day it will gone,,,,,,, somebody will take it away from me....... (>_<)... last time Rocky is like that also..... and now is Dou Dou turn.....
why they all want to treat me like this ways..... give me some hope...... and take it away when they like...........................
i really cant surfer from it anymore.. i'm quite tired now............i just want to take a rest,,,,,,,,,,
i hope so i will find someone who can borrow his shoulder for me to lean, to cry..........................
why i never met a guy who can be trust............... i'm already 23years old but never start any relationship before............................
why all the lucky not going with me..................
how long i still need to stay on this life style,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
i feel a lots of jealousy with others friends around me,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

where are you dou dou??
i miss you...................
please go home as soon as possible................